Writing the two recent blogposts during the same day keep me thinking about the last topic – integrity. You know that moment when you’ve come that far that you can’t even bother or stand it any more. I am so tired being this, being that, saying the right thing here, doing the right thing there. ENOUGH! And everything is about being liked, being good enough. Well, I am good enough. I am actually brilliant. I just had a tendency making myself small so I would fit in with other, less …. eh fortunate people. But what I get is that I get treated less fortunately!
I must say this second year of Master Key is harder than the first one. I really wonder why. First thing that comes to mind is focus. I was in a desperate need of improving my life, I had a secure and inspiring place where I lived and I was really focused and determined to win. I had a lot of time on my side as well. This year has been filled with confusion. Or maybe other s”’t surfacing that I had to deal with. Either way I am behind my plans! And I don’t like it, I get a feeling that I will never get there and I get a feeling of that emptiness filling the space whereever I am.
So what about love? What about accomplishment? I am much more secure in myself now and I am standing up for myself more and more in different areas of my life. It is not about crying about losing a battle, but it is about winning a war. And I am. Because I always win. But how hard can it be? I fall in every pool of water there is on my way! Well what to do…..One thing I know is that whenever you feel fear – act through it, do not run away from it. And that is what I am doing. What a depressed blogpost this is. But since this is all about authenticity I am leaving it the way it is. Oh and about positive things: I hear my guides much more clearly now and whatever I ask of I get help. It might be an insight or a change in vibration..And yesterday I asked for a change in dynamics in my relationships…’be careful what you wish for’ as they say. Thank you Hathor for helping me.
Last week was a complete tumbler-drier when I was struggling to get my footing back. If you have ever tried surfing – on the waves ofcourse 🙂 – then you know the feeling being kicked off your board, whirling up and down, without knowing what is up and what is down, focusing on remembering to protect your head with your arms. Wow, I have lost who I am and my focus and where I am going, making myself small. How could this happen? Codependence. I have been asking for advice outside of myself, not trusting myself enough, giving in the old belief about me.
In fact I am powerful beyond measure and I refuse to take what I took the last 3 months. It was about survival and now when it is sorted I have energy to move to next stages. I am moving out things that are out of integrity, I can say it now, looking back to the previous week. I see it as that it was needed, the things were needed to surface up in order for me to take care of them. And ofcourse since it was the forgiveness week I am to forgive myself. I forgive myself for not listening to my inner voice, for quieting down my needs and for dancing to someone else’s drum. My dreams seemed so far away. One big thing was about drawing boundaries – which I did! And now I continue doing it in our areas of my life – everything that is out of integrity has to go. The big cleanup!
I am taking my power back, getting back to myself, discovering the mysteries of my inner, dancing to my own drum. I am on my biggest adventure of discovering who I am. I refuse being guided my the fears that are not even mine. I can do anything, I am amazing. I follow my voice, my integrity.
And I forgive myself. For being scared and lost and for not believing in myself. As Mark said in webcast for week 7 – how hard it is to get out of your negative thinking is not even your fault! It is your conditioning, it is in your genes. It is not your fault. All I have to do is being focused and persistent enough, and of that I have unlimited resources.
I will not have me quietened my someone else any more. I take my power back. I know what I bring to the table and I am not afraid to eat alone.
First of all – what a year! A year full of growth, where everything is sped up 10 times…one challenge gets overshadowed by the next, I am exhausted! But from our biggest challenges we get the biggest rewards and I am grateful for that, especially afterwards and maybe not so much in the midst on the eye of the storm.
So I have unpacked and starting to get familiar with the new area and the new life. My body is aching but for every day that goes I slowly get back to myself from the last crazy week. I realize that all is well. And I feel like sitting back and watching everything unfolding in front of me.
In these insecure times I meet many harsh people, who lash out their feelings on the first person standing in front of them and that is challenging. What a dark age we live in, where the majority of our population are not even familiar with mental cleaning or taking responsibility for themselves. I am one of them some of the time…but I have also an urge of evolving and it can be quite hard in the society full of sheep! I am sorry for being negative but that’s how I feel.
But I am a lion and I refuse to sleep and eat with the sheep.
Will rewrite my DMP shortly and set up new, higher goals! Let’s go.
Hello dear ones, I greet you with love – for what else really matters than love? Many of us are not raised with loving ourselves and so we have to learn it when we get older. Some of the ingredients in the magical recipe of loving oneself is making it good for oneself – with relationships, residence location, place where you work, start with the basics.
So last week has been really busy for me with planning and packing for my move. I mentioned in previous post that I had found a house and last week was about the practical arrangements. Packing, sorting, cleaning the old house….but now it is done and everything went smoothly and a few days ago I feel a shift in the air – the winder is coming. The chill is no longer gentle one that belongs to October, but a harsher one, colder, the one we have it in the North. I left the keys to my previous house an hour after the full moon last Saturday. How symbolic, don’t you think? For those of you who are not familiar – full moons are about letting go of the past or things that no longer serve us. Work has been about setting boundaries and knowing what I bring to the table as well…let’s see what future brings in its arms, but sailing off to new land, that’s in the subconscious.
‘Mind in action is thought, and thought is creative. Men are thinking now as they never thought before.
Therefore, this is a creative age, and the world is awarding its richest prizes to the thinkers. Matter is powerless, passive, inert. Mind is force, energy, power. Mind shapes and controls matter. Every form which matter takes is but the expression of some pre-existing thought.
But thought works no magic transformations; it obeys natural laws: it sets in motion natural forces; it releases natural energies; it manifests in your conduct and actions, and these in turn react upon your friends and acquaintances, and eventually upon the whole of your environment. You can originate thought, and, since thoughts are creative, you can create for yourself the things you desire.’ – Master Key, Part Five
May you always be in a successful state of mind, so that you can be receptive for all the magic coming your way.
This week has been a turning point for me. If you have read my previous post, then you know I have been struggling. It was pressure at work and pressure and stress with finding a new house to live in. I felt I was behind my plan (I am a red if you haven’t noticed!) and I was struggling with believing in my powers. I prayed and prayed and with help from my mentor, and my dear boyfriend Thomas I signed a house to rent! I had seen so many houses and they didn’t make my heart sing, or even manage to put a smile to my face, but this one made me feel vigorous, powerful, joyful and full of life again – I was back! That’s how I knew it was for me and though it didn’t fulfill ALL of my checkboxes I went with the flow. I like the people I am renting from, they were really easy to get along with, and I also felt I could be inspired by them in a few ways. Happy I am!
Now when I feel that this major thing is getting sorted – I a moving on Saturday next week – the same day as it is full moon! – I feel that my inspiration is coming flooding over me! My two PPNs are Spiritual Growth and last year it was autonomy, but this year when I did the exersize I got Recognition for Creative Expression and was quite unsure of it. But now I feel it is poking on my attention, waiting, wispering and longing to come and create through me! I am soooo happy about that, it feels like I am coming to bloom out, I am coming alive again! Or maybe again for the first time in this lifetime! Anyway it all feels very exciting, intriguing and very very lovely. I imagne myself decorating my new tiny house. It will be an oyster with a perl inside, yes it will feel like a perl when you get inside my house! Aaaahhhhh!!!
And with that being said I very grateful to Davene, Charlotte and GG and Thomas with inspiring me what Recognition for Creative Expression can look like and how to make it possible to monetize on it. For the moment I am inspired by a podd ‘Sekelskiftessystrar’ – https://mariastadell.se/podd/ by two women, Maria Stadell and Ida Gerdemark who talk about their move to the countryside and how they create and build their creative businesses. They live in period houses, grow wonderful gardens with beautiful flowers and vegetables, and they create. Maria gives online courses for creative women online and inspires them to listen to their inner inspiration. Maria has written a wonderful book ‘Den inre rösten’ (in english ‘The inner voice’), which is about her journey from the office job and grey life, to a colourful life, where she dares to follow her inner voice and its whispers and creates from there. Ida (https://www.idagerdemark.se/) is a designer, artist and creator of her brand ‘Papper och flätor’ (Tr. ‘paper and braids’). They are my big inspiration since I also want to live in the country side and not being bound to an office, and be able to create. I feel so grateful for all of this inspiration.
I am listening to the second episode of their podcast and it feels like my soul sings with joy. When I move, I will have plenty of time to be creative since my house situation will be sorted. I have a dream to write a book, have a vernissage for my paintings and now I get inspired of making podcasts, writing more, creating, creating, creating!!
It feels like something bursts out through me and I hear Maria say something that really resonates with me ‘It’s not me who is creating, instead I am being led in my creating’.
The more I trust, the more I open up to the Universe and Spirit creating through me. And this, my dear friends, is a meaning of life – being true to your authentic self and creating the fairy-tale of your dreams!
Believe, Anna PS And by the way – check out my latest piece of art:
‘You can do better than this’ – has been going through my mind when I mentally told those words to a person recently. I was feeling not the way I wanted to feel so I prayed. I went to the woods and prayed and complained and talked to God and complained again, feeling very sorry for myself. And prayed for help.
And then – BAM – the thought hit me that those words were meant to me! I CAN DO BETTER THAN THIS! So I started talking to myself: come on Anna, you are not a f****ng victim, you have enourmous power within you, you can do better than feeling sorry for yourself, step the fuck up! And so I did 🙂
Thank you God, Spiritual worlds and me, as we are all one in one. How ironic, that week 3 Lesson says: ‘Eliminate, therefore, any possible tendency to complain of conditions as they have been, or as they are, because it rests with you to change them and make them what you would like them to be.
Persist in the practice until you come to a realization of the fact that there can be no failure in the accomplishment of any proper object in life in you but understand your power and persist in your object, because the mind-forces are ever ready to lend themselves to a purposeful will, in the effort to crystallize thought and desire into actions, events and conditions.’
Now if you’ll excuse me I will work on getting back to my magnetism.
Since all you all know that there are no coincidents, that when we recognize the magnificence of our unconscious mind and let the Universe create through us – the magic starts happening I will tell you about my latest synchronicity. This week I got introduced to a new series about witches. The main character is a Doctor and lecturer in Alchemy at Oxford University. Strange things start happening and she founds out that she is a witch and that she has been spellbound. All her life she has been half her.
If this movie is about me? YES! I truly believe life is a school of magic and since my kundalini awakening I have been struggling to get everything together. Before, living only in the first attention world, the amplitude of my ups and downs has been quite low, being controlled by my limiting beliefs. After the awakening, when the veil has got off from my eyes, I see that everything is an illusion, as it is very real as well. I started reading the Kybalion, where this thing is explained.
‘There are millions upon millions of such worlds, and greater. And there are millions of millions of such Universes n existence within the infinite Mind of the ALL.’ – The Kybalion
And I know it is true because I have experienced some of that.
And yet my task is to be able to control my power. Not to deny it and not to be afraid of it. But after the kundalini the amplitude has become so much higher, everything is suddenly possible. I can see how I have manifested some things that I didn’t believe were possible and yet I am struggling with fears of basics. You see the higher the highs and the lower the lows – the Law of Pendulum (The Kybalion).
Master Key and the Kybalion helps me get everything into place. ‘The half-wise, recognizing the comparative unreality of the Universe, imagine that they may defy its Laws – such are vain and presumptuous fools, and they are broken against the rocks and torn asunder by the elements by reason of their folly. The truly wise, knowing the nature of the Universe, use Law against laws, the higher against the lower; and by the art of Alchemy transmute that which is undesirable into that which is worthy, and thus triumph. Mastery consists not in abnormal dreams, visions and fantastic imaginings or living, but in using the higher forces against the lower – escaping the pains of the lower planes by vibrating on the higher. Transmutation, not presumptuous denial, is the weapon of the Master.’ – The Kybalion
With already open and existing high amplitude in me, I will use my ability to magnify things to my advantage – I will magnify that which I want. It is time I start remembering my power and stop fooling around.
And by the way, in the story, the witch remembers her powers in the time of need. The prince can’t save her because he can’t fly and she is sitting far down in a well hole in the ground. Slowly she starts remembering that she can fly. First it doesn’t work and then she hears the words inside her: ‘Magic is in our hearts’ …..and then she slowly starts flying up. She is no longer spellbound.
Starting my second year with Master Key and really looking forward! I am so greateful for all of you making it happen, I have missed you. It feels a bit unbelievable that it was only a year ago it all started – my DMP, going to school of magic – that is what I call being able to manifest my heart’s desires. A true magician.
Once again a parallel to Toltec indians comes to mind. They first had to learn the art of stalking before they learned how to dream. The art of living in the 1st attention, before they went to the 2n and third. Most people in our society who don’t believe in magic, who live in a shemed world live in a very narrow minded reality, which is often forced on us since we are born. When we are born we get to hear who we are, what is what, what our name is and how the world operates. But have you asked yourself if it is really true or if it is someone else’s beliefs?
So being a true magician. I love how I can write myself back into my wisdom. A true magician excels the art of stalking. Thank you the ALL for reminding me of that! The truth is I wrote my DMP a year ago and I have come far since then, but not as far as I have wanted. Lessons from here are : a) set realistic goals, b) have patience, c) believe in myself, d) celebrate my success. It is challenging times for me right now and I have to remind myself that this is a lesson in order to get my DMP. And Saturn has just stopped, starting going direct tomorrow and Mars is retrograde…
‘Time teaches all things to him who lives forever but I have not the luxury of eternity. Yet, within my allotted time I must practice the art of patience for nature acts never in haste. To create the olive, king of all trees, a hundred years is required. An onion plant is old in nine weeks.. I have lived as an onion plant. It has not pleased me. Now i wouldst become the greatest of olive trees and, in truth, the greatest of salesmen.’ – Scroll I, the Greatest Salesman in the World, Og Mandino
Isn’t it lovely with change? The feeling of that something magical is on its way in, the sense of wonder…Two days ago Thomas took me to an island in the outer archipelago of Stockholm and it was magical, so much air, free so breathe! Open waters, open skyes, and something in me shifted. I let go and surrendered, and it all became to free, slow, fast, vibrant and vast.
And so it is, I am working on letting go, and when I let go I make room for the new to come in. Yes, change is in the air and I love it. In fact I can’t wait… I have my dreams coming true! There is an energy of renewal within me et voilà – I even updated the look of my blog – new colours, more calm, and earthy palette..mmmm! A quote comes to mind:
‘Change is the only thring that will kepp you alive’ – Unknown
And it all shifted when I started doing Master Key exersizes again, working mentally on my dreams, and all the magic came back! I am so greatful for having love in my life, for the magic, and for being held by the Universe.
What is it what you truly desire? Believe and prioritize it and it will come. We are all creators in this life – so pick up your brush and create the canvas of your wildest dreams!
Hallo Master Key world! I am back! Yes, I am and it feels great. God, Ive missed you! Ive missed this energy, joy and bright future outlooks. So this morning I went up and did my old Master Key routine, like the ‘good old times’ – I read Great Salesman, my DMP, my basic cards and my Blueprint. I wrote 2 new cards and I started with Haanel’s lesson 1 and did a 20 min sit. It is my birthday in 2 days and this is the best birthday present I could give myself – because the MAGIC IS BACK IN MY LIFE! I am the happiest when I follow my path, my goals and dreams. And yes, I am the happiest when I no longer wait for others to jump up on my train, but when I accelerate in my own speed. The ones that are destined and willing will be able to keep up, Im done waiting!
What is waiting? Waiting is boring, it is making oneself small in order to fit in to a shape, a situation or a person. Maybe giving up oneself a little. I am able being on a higher frequency and that’s where I am aiming to stay. I am so greateful that I said yes to the continuation and that the yummy Kabalyon waits for me. Thank you Mark and company for making this possible, especially during these confusing times when it is even easier to get lost. So so greatful for all of the Master Key community!
So where am I at? I have succedded in one big thing I wanted – I am happy with my job and financial situation, which was my prio nr 1 when I started Master Key a little less than a year ago. Check on that one! And I am having a leadership role within it, just as I have written down in my DMP. ‘Developing my leadership skills and financing my autonomous life’. Very produ of myself. Now I have 2 more goals to manifest ASAP, before the 31st of August 2020. In order to match my vibe. I see that until now I have been failing in seeing my worth of what I am worth and giving myself less. I am worth luxury and there is nothing wrong with that. So wish me luck and I will see you in the next round of MKE! Once again, thank you, all the positive tribe member for being real. It means a lot and feels like a big rock I can have behind my back.
I invite joy, happyness and harmony and receive what is mine ❤